始めましてI'm a moody OOR, in love with Japanese culture and language. My hobbies are: writing, photography , Korean culture, music.よろしく
Sitting in a chair with my head bursting of pain
I think about you.
It’s been so long since you came into my mind.
I remember like it was yesterday
In those times when the future was just a child’s play.
You taught me one lesson
How to live not just messin’.
I’m sitting here listening to your song
You always loved to play and made me sink in thoughts.
But everything is gone,
There’s no hatred, not even lust.
I buried you so long time ago.
I buried the memories we used to share.
Even the goodbye message on that broken old phone.
But do you know how much you hurt me?
Do you know how much you played with me?
Probably not, because I said yes when we broke up.
I still remember your brown child-like eyes and the tone of your voice.
I can’t forget even if I want.
You were my first love and my last.
Because I’ll never leave someone to play with my heart.
I’m sitting here on my desk
Trying to make sense of a bunch of verbs.
My head is bursting with pain but I forget
Because I still remember what you once said
You only live for now, forget the rest.
I can’t believe it. I’m finally doing it.
A few weeks ago I took a drastic decision. Oh well, not that drastic. I was thinking about it for a long time, picking it up, trowing it away, picking it up again , forgetting ..well, you get the general idea.
When I first came to UK , I wanted to stay here, to have a life, a stable job, a career maybe. But later, I realized that I don’t really enjoy staying in just one place, to get stuck in this awful routine, going to work, working, going back home, cooking, maybe going out with friends/boyfriend, sleeping, and then back to work again. It’s just impossible for me to do that. My brain needs some adventure, new experiences, new places. That’s why, after being so stressed because of rent, looking for a job, I said STOP. This is not for me. I want to live, not to stress. So I decided to leave to another place, East Asia, as an English teacher.
Not being a native English speaker made me feel a bit anxious about this. You know, it’s hard to get a job if you’re not from the most wanted places. But I guess I’ll have to work this out somehow. Anyway, if I had decided to stay in the UK, things wouldn’t been easier for me. So here I am, booking the TEFL course and studying a bit of grammar, vocabulary and other stuff I need to improve till the most wanted day.